I forgive myself
that I failed
to keep your love.
I forgive myself
inacceptance,
naivety,
the losing of myself in us
the blindness,
the unfair tries to find
you.
I forgive you
your speechlessness,
your absence,
stagnation,
unreliability,
disvaluation.
Your surrender.
I forgive you
that you decided against me
and us.
I forgive us
mistreatments,
misunderstandings,
miscommunications.
Our incapability to speak,
listen
and understand.
Our numbness,
disappointment,
sadness,
accusations,
ignorance.
Our fade out.
I forgive us truly,
that our love is not enough.
And that we couldn‘t make it work in all those years.
I forgive us
the merge of our souls
as well as our disconnection.
Yes, I forgive us
that it didn‘t work out the way we wished it would.
[honoring.]
xxj