and after a while,
although it’s hard to admit,
I became your enemy.
and although you are the best at turning things around,
at a certain point there was no turning back anymore.
You mistreated,
I waited.
you wouldn’t treat me the way I hoped you would
and you wouldn’t treat me the way I deserved.
and you stopped trying.
and you stopped caring.
I will not fight against your demons.
I will not fight against those things you cannot keep your hands from.
how often did you ask me to join you in this abyss?
you can never stop.
it’s a battle I can only lose.
how come
as the strongest man I know,
you are not stronger than that?
xj